Just here to fill you in on my boring life. I am sure that you are so glad that you don’t pay to read this garbage. LOL

+ I am feeling better and 100%.
- So tired of getting sick and ish like that.
+ Work is getting better
+ Spring Break was good. Relaxing.
- Didn’t go any where but only had to work three out of five days.
+ Next year want to do something vacationy.
+ The school year is almost over.
+ Scottie and I are back on good terms and I’m loving it.
- Hate that I am a paranoid freak sometime. Guess that gets me in trouble sometime.
+ I am looking forward to revamping some areas of my life. Let me know if you want to take part.
+ Doing a photoshooot sometime this month. I think? Hehe.
+ Still listening to “Touch My Body” constantly. On iTunes I have listened to it 79 times. On my iPod… 115. In total, you don’t care.
+ LOL

Look forward to hearing some of you soon.
xo. damizzarippa.

(Minneapolis, Minnesota) The Guthrie Theater is getting a lot more Kushner into its lineup next season.

E=MC² will be released April 15, 2008 on Island Def Jam Records.

Here’s the tracklisting for the album:

1. Migrate featuring T-Pain
2. Touch My Body
3. Cruise Control featuring Damian Marley
4. I Stay In Love
5. Side Effects featuring Young Jeezy
6. I’m That Chick
7. Love Story
8. I’ll Be Lovin’ U Long Time
9. Last Kiss
10. Thanx 4 Nothin’
11. O.O.C.
12. For The Record
13. Bye Bye
14. I Wish You Well

(MariahCarey.com)

When is enough, enough?

Maybe after they knock on the door and don’t wait for an answer.
They just enter.

Maybe after they eat all your food and don’t tell you that there isn’t anymore.
They just eat.

Is that enough?

Maybe after they ignore your phone calls for about four days and say they never got any of your calls.
They just keep on ignoring you.

Maybe after they have used all of your laundry detergent and complain that there isn’t any.
They just used the last drop for the stinky ass clothes.

When I say?

Maybe after they have not paid rent for the last six to eight months on time.
They just take up space.

Maybe when they have not paid utilities at all for the last eight to ten months, at all.
And they just keep cranking that stereo and using the appliciances.

When do I say enough is enough?

Follow me… I am on a journey
Falling in love
Crying those tears… making dreams come true.
Living in positivity and only observing the negative.

Hey there!

What’s been going on in your world? I am doing well. I was sick for a little bit and hurt my heel. So now I hope that I am back on a road to recovery! Yay me! Haha… whatever!

+ I am still working at the school that is like one block a way from my house.
+ I love the hours that I get to work.
- I don’t like the kids that have attitudes and think that being an adult is going to be so easy.
- Sorry junior you can’t live with Mommy forever.
+ I am still with Scott. He’s handsome! He’s cute!
- We were having some issues…
+ But things are getting better.
- I hurt my heel on my right foot. I am still can’t really walk on it but it hurt like a mother.
- Then I got sick. Heavy coughing… not being able to breathe.
+ Got better. The heel and cough are going away almost completely. Loving the real me again.
+ Went to an Exotic art show and finally met one of my online buddies… Julio Cesar Rodarte.
+ Hopefully will be doing a website for him.
- I think that he likes my man.
+ LOL… I love him. Hopefully he loves me well enough to not leave, but if so…
- I will cry.
- Missing all the lovies that I was friends with and now they don’t return my calls.
+ I’m fierce, rawr. Hehe. (Inside Joke)
+ I am anticipating the year of the Divas. Janet, Mariah and Madonna.
+ Loving ‘Feedback’… like the remix with Ciara. Can’t wait for the album.
+ Lovin’ snippets of Madonna’s tracks that I keep hearing and like the snippets. Hehe. Want the album.
+ LOVING ‘Touch My Body’ by Mariah Carey and seriously keep playing it over and over! Haha. I am definitely anticipating this album.
+ Still doing websites and graphic design via http://www.eyeplaydesign.com
+ Buy some EPD swagger at http://www.cafepress.com/eyeplaydesign
+ Let me know what you think of it.

Love ya’ll hope to hear something from you all out there!
xo. damizzarippa.

(New York City) A New York City woman has been found guilty of  killing her 23-month-old son. Her partner is already serving a sentence for her part in the murder.

Zahira Matos, 23, faces a sentence of 15 years to life behind bars for the death of Yovany Tellez who was beaten to death in September 2004 while being reprimanded for soiling himself.

Matos’ partner, Carmen Molina, 35, is serving a 15 year sentence after pleading guilty last May.

Matos stood silently, showing no emotion, as the jury read its verdict.  She will be sentenced next month.

Each woman had blamed the other for the boy’s death.

Molina delivered the fatal blows in a drunken stupor. Matos waited almost five hours before calling 911.

An autopsy found the infant suffered broken ribs, a broken leg and a pulverized liver. He was bruised extensively over his body and was covered in feces when found.

In his summation to the jury Assistant District Attorney Kerry O’Connell said that Matos was on trial “for what she did not do.”

Matos’ lawyer, Arthur Friedman, said that he will appeal the verdict.

Her two surviving children are in the care of their grandmother.

©365Gay.com 2008

Mariah is shooting the music video to “Touch My Body” over this weekend – February 9th and 10th in an undisclosed location in Los Angeles, California. The director of the video is Brett Ratner who previously directed “I Still Believe”, “Heartbreaker”, “Thank God I Found You”, “It’s Like That” and “We Belong Together.”

Auditions were held for some parts in the video on Wednesday, February 6 in Santa Monica. One of the roles required a “geeky” looking guy. Actor Jack McBrayer, known for his role as Kenneth on NBC’s 30 Rock will be appearing in the video.

(Mariah Daily Journal)

Wake alone.
You are gone.

One night and everything that I spent in the one night of fun
And with the lust running all over the both of us.

Except…
You had a mission.
You took my wallet. You took various things from my home.

Wierd,
Took mementos that I have spent working hard for
I call all my credit card companies and the bank.
Cash has already been maximizally been withdrawn
  I have to wait 48 hours for an investigation to be done.

It was a great night at the club.
I thought that I was going to go home alone.
I danced on the dance floor all alone.
I bought my own drinks.

Then I saw you and we made eye contact.
It was hot, the way that you looked at me.
It was touching… it… it was something that I didn’t expect at all.

We talk.
We get along.
We understand each other.
I feel that things are going well.

“Want to go grab some coffee?”

“Yeah… that’d be awesome!”

Slowly,
We walked to a local coffee shop.
I spent less than I would when I am feeding my Starbucks habit.

An hour or two went by.
I felt great… different… awesome!
All things that I didn’t think that I was going to feel.
You got me emotional… you got me intellectually.
You got me.

You reached across the table and asked if you could take me home.
So direct, but I felt like it was totally fine.
I agree to let you come over to my place.

Yeah… we continued to talk at my place.
You began to touch me. I wasn’t sure if I was comfortable.
I felt like I had to make sure it was okay with my conscience.

“No!” says the voice inside my head.
But before I could respond I felt you lips on mine and my body responded.
It felt great. The touch… the kiss. The rush of warmth over my body.
You took me away and I was already making plans for the next day.
Even if you didn’t want a relationship I was ready for just being… “buddies”
Just coming over when it felt right.

You took my breath away.
I felt good. I felt safe.
Until I woke up the next morning.
You were gone.

My belongings… missing.
My wallet…. missing.
Even the pants that I was wearing were… missing.
You didn’t even leave yours behind.
Picture of my ex… gone, not really needed but gone.

Now with an investigation going on with all of this.
I am broke. I am alone. I should have known that it was too good to be true.
I should have, I could have… it’s too late.
My wall of protection is back up. Protection my heart, my soul, body… and my wallet.

I don’t want to hurt any more.
Tears have fallen too many times because of the pain that you have caused me.

I want you to learn to control yourself
I want you to know that I am growing into my own life and that I have moved on from you.
I am no longer needing your assistance.

There was a time that I wish that any one would love me.
I was reaching out with desperation and let those that were really interested in me pass me by.

The time has flown by and I have sit in this room by myself
Learning that the world continues without me
I want you to learn to control yourself.

Here. There. Everywhere.
I was worried about being alone for the rest of my life.

But it doesn’t matter if it’s the way that it’s going be then I guess that I will have to learn to deal with it.
I can’t live for the rest of the world and die knowing that I never satisfied any of my needs
Tears have fallen too many times because of the pain that you have caused me.

I am regaining control of where I need to go and how I want to live.
I am no longer needing your assistance.

Let me lash out in anger! Let me cry my sarrows to the pits of hell! Let me touch the clouds of heaven!
Let the blood rush from my viens when people cut through my heart and let it bleed.
I am not longer going to reach out in desperation and let those that are really interested in me pass me by.

This is the time for me to take over. I am taking control of my life.
I want you to learn to control yourself.