Feeling the Need
(written by P.A. Jervis, Jr.)
On this day I woke up with the strong feeling
The feeling of need, the need to have someone
Near to me to hold me, to tell me that everything was all right
To tell me that everything will work out just fine
To bring happiness to my world after it's been so damaged by others
I am feeling the need
To help other people with their relationships
But I can't seem to get my own off the ground
I can't even get one going with it losing control
And falling apart and earning the role of victim
Because the person decides to leave
I just woke up today feeling just a little underappreciated
A little unwanted, not needed at all
I am not begging for anyone's sympathy,
I am just asking for you to relate to this feeling
This feeling of need, to feel the warmth of someone's arms around you
As you watch reruns of your favorite show or you go to the movies and
Watch your favorite movie of romance or action/thriller
I have had the feeling of need before
For I thought that I had this need fulfilled but the person that claimed
To be there for me loved another and I couldn't share this heart with another lover
Then I suddenly felt the need of unwantedness
The tears began to rush as I saw that he was happier with someone else than he was with me
Suddenly I thought I was free
But I wasn't
I had returned to the land of silence and loneliness
In returned the feeling that left me
The feeling of need, the feeling to be held in the middle of the night when fear kept me awake
I strong feel the need to be needed by another
As I watched other couples today, even some of them going through their struggles
Even some of them going through their pain
They had this sense of need that lie in between, something that kept them together
This shone bright, from their smiles and they way they looked at each other
The glare was so bright and made me feel the feeling of need
I am feeling the need to belong to one
To belong one who will be faithful and make things last
Who will bring sunshine into my cloudy and saddened world
A world that has been destroyed that thought they could feel the need
That I once had and continue to linger on with.
Soon, I hope, the feeling of need will bring the feeling of love
And I will feel the lonely no more.
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