Heart over Mind
(written by P.A. Jervis, Jr.)

I am in a mood because I am feeling alone
I've got the weight of other people's trouble on my back
Breaking me down, breaking me down slowly
As I live through other people's drama and all their unwon victories

Please excuse the mood, I know it scares you
Even though you don't come and talk to be about your problems
I thought it'd be fine to bring mine to you and you can help me solve them
Carrying different shades of personality with me at all times is what I do
Trying to pick out the perfect outfit for you, to be cute to be unharming to your eyes

Unspoken words are the words that break me down the most
The body language that you give keeps kicking my ass
Because I am still trying to figure it out what you are needing from me
I thought after you left I'd finally be free
I wouldn't be obligated and I would be emancipated
And being able to find out who I am after being covered in your fame and glory
Thus receiving no credit for this great talent that I carry in my back pocket

Please forgive for I am in the mood to just let go of everything, including my life
Because you have found love inside of me and I have yet to see it in you
You keep telling me that we need to do things and that we need to go ahead move on ahead in life
But you are most unprepared individual I know and haven't helped me to move anywhere
Or the further you go ahead, the further I get left behind
Left to try tears here on alone and not hear a word from you all day when you promised me
The phone call that would brighten up my day, to make me smile
To put my worries at rest for the evening so I could fall asleep with ease without the daily dosage
Of overworking a job that I no longer feel that I enjoy and end each day feeling underappreciated

I know that I am smart. I know I've got this knowledge that it supposed to save me from the heartbreak that
I suffer from so often but I haven't gotten to that point yet. I have yet to figure what the hell I am doing in my own life
As people keep on talking about me behind my back and not give me any opportunity to fix whatever they think is broken
Most of the time they are the ones that need the fixing anyway, but to know instead of hearing it from someone else or three
Or four people is quiet the unnecessary
I wish that you could have been here to help me and give me it is what I need, maybe a hug or maybe just an ear
An ear to listen to know what else I can do with myself, instead of running in circles like dumb sheeps

The music plays loud in my head, today it just seems too loud, contributing to my mood
I keep trying to turn it down but I keep downloading the noise of another place, another person
Another worry, another fear, makes shake, rattle and roll on the ground asking for mercy to save me from
The pain and suffering that I have so deep
Sometime I wake up feeling sexy and feeling that I should be wanted but I realize that it's just me
No one is here to smile in my face as they wake up to the morning glory and sunshine
No one to say that they love me and give me the love that my heart is longing for

This mood just seems to come and go.. it travels to the front and goes on to the space in the back of my mind
But only for a short while, not letting me forget how lonely I really am
How long it's been since I've have sensed the sensation of the great orgasism of love
But those that have said they loved me before have left me in the dark and empty room, which is so cloudy and full of lonely
No one really understands why I have so many closets and why the doors are nailed shut and slowly the nails fall out because of
Cheapness and they began to rust and as I start to push out of one someone buys new nails and forces me to stay in

I still here the music sometime it turns into noise because I lack the motivation to keep it going
To keep a simple melody that keep everyone happy but leave me forever still in the dark with the rest of the unhappies

SUNDAY'S ARE MADE FOR MOTHAFUCKIN' PROMO
(++ sunday artists promo)

Yeah buddy, I was doing this on MySpace for awhile, then I stopped. I
don't do it as much but I think I am going to start doing again. I pick
three musical artists that have stuck out in my mind during the week.
Sometime I promote them twice..some just once. So here are my choices
for the week:

• Missy Elliott - [http://www.missy-elliott.com]
  - I've got the boot leg version of this cd and it is simply amazing.
  Missy just never seems to lack the originality or twisting and turn
  just when you think that she's got this like one routine or whatever
  for her music. Home girl definitely really gets me with tracks like
  'Partytime,' 'Bad Man' and 'Mommy.' Check her out and get her album on
  July 5th..cause you know I am!
• Benji - [http://www.myspace.com/benjaminhayes] -
  Benji...awwh Benji. One of the many singers trying to make it the UK
  and trying to make it to the big time. I have started to work with this
  young man on his website in hopes of seeing his dream come to life. His
  smooth vocals and good looks win everyone over everytime. Be sure to
  check him out. Benji wants to make it clear that if any artists out
  there want to work with him to be sure to send an email his way at
  bhayes3000@hotmail.com.
• The Octopussi - [http://www.octopussi.com] -
  Despite the reach out and confuse me name for this rap team. With the
  one song 'If You Got Cheex' (Cheeks) that I have heard from them. I
  like the vibe that they give me. I am hoping good things from them.
  'Clap.. that' Check them out.

If you are a solo artist or have a band send me your info and I'll include you in the Sunday Artists Promo

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