JUST LETTING MYSELF BE, JUST LETTING MYSELF GO.

This morning I woke up feeling weak, feeling tired, feeling under-desired.
I felt the weight of the guilt that I was placing on someone else's shoulders
Instead of taking it on and push the weight, taking on the struggle.
I peeled off the frustration of the struggle that I was going through and placed them
On people that hardly even know me or even want to feel the feeling.

I woke up this morning feeling like I had done the wrong thing.
Like I had said the wrong words to the wrong person and of course at the wrong time.
Instead of keeping my feelings to myself until the problem got resolved I spilled the milk at the dinner table.
And forgot to clean up my mess and blamed on the person nearest to me, instead of acting responsible.
I yelled my frustation and pain of this struggle that I was going through and forced them
On people that hardly even know me or even want to feel the feeling.

I woke up this morning feeling like I was not being myself.
I was not letting myself be who I was supposed to be.
I was changing for the fact that someone said that they would like me more for being this, for being that.
Now that's just not the right fact. I had to step down and on the way down, I stepped on the wrong people.
Instead of stepping on the people that hurt me, I stepped on the people that loved me and were willing to be there for me.
And I lost the opportunity to be just be me, to just be free.
I cried my river of frustration and pain of this struggle that I was going through and forced them
On people that hardly even know me or even want to know the feeling.

I woke this morning with the feeling of dishonesty that was stuck in the back of my throat.
It was an uncomfortable feeling that I was trying to let go. I tried to breathe.
I kept on pushing the effort but every thing that I had lived for was flashing in front of me.
Now I was the one that was losing everything. My individuality, my freedom, my right to be just me.. the person that I wanted to be.
Instead of stepping up to the people that were trying to change me, instead they are choking me with their stereotypes and conformity.
And I lost the opportunity to be just me, to be free.
I fell into the grave of being a no one, almost a someone that no one ever knew or heard of.
Buried deep in the rubbish of what people that I thought I should do, who I should be..
When I could have lived free to just be myself, lived free to just be free.

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Beautiful Rose.
(Written by P.A. Jervis, Jr.)

A beautiful rose with beautiful pedals has to began to blossom
It's blossoming at the start of the summer's end and autumn's beginning.

A beautiful rose with beautiful pedals has began to bring joy to my eyes
As I await each day to wake and look at the rose that presents it's beauty to me.

For the beauty of the rose brings joy to me.
Making me feel nice, feel good, to feel free.

 INFORMATION ABOUT MARIAH'S UPCOMING RE-RELEASES  

Here is all the information we were able to find out about the upcoming Mariah re-releases. Most of these details have not been confirmed by any official source but were reported by loyal and reliable fans. Please take the following information with a grain of salt.
In France, Mariah told the fans that the "Merry Christmas" re-edition will include two new tracks. It is rumored that Mariah shot new footage to be included on the DVD. Sony Music will release the dual disc (CD + DVD) on October 25th, 2005.
In England, when asked about the re-release of "The Emancipation of Mimi", Mariah confirmed that it will have three new songs. Two of them are "Don't Forget About Us" and a collaboration with Twista, described by Mariah as "One and Only" part II  (rumored to be titled "So Lonely"). The third track hasn't been named by Mariah but rumors suggest it could be the Mahogany produced "When I Feel It" or the remake to "With You I'm Born Again" which Mariah performed with John Legend on VH1's "Save the Music" concert. Universal will be re-releasing "The Emancipation of Mimi" on November 15th, 2005.

(Mariah Daily)

 Roberts further explains role in 'gay rights' case
Sep 15, 2005
By Michael Foust
Baptist Press

WASHINGTON (BP)--Supreme Court nominee John Roberts told senators Sept. 15 that although he provided pro bono work for homosexual groups in the landmark Romer v. Evans decision, he "probably" would have assisted the other side in the case if approached with that opportunity first.

Some social conservatives have expressed concern that Roberts donated several hours of work to assist homosexual groups in the 1996 case, in which the Supreme Court struck down a Colorado constitutional amendment that had prevented homosexuality from being given civil rights status. At the time Roberts was working as an attorney with a Washington law firm.

The head of the firm's pro bono department asked for Roberts' assistance in the case.

Earlier in the week Roberts told senators that he "never turned down" a pro bono request. On the final day of questioning Sept. 15, Roberts was asked by Sen. Richard Durbin, D.-Ill., if he would have represented the state of Colorado in defending the amendment if the state "had come to you first." Durbin supported the Romer decision.

"It's a hypothetical question, of course. I think I probably would have, senator," Roberts said. "I actually have done pro bono assistance for states on a regular basis through the national association of attorneys general.

"... It has not been my general view that I sit in judgment on clients when they come to me. I view that as the job of the court.”

Roberts, who would be the nation's 17th chief justice if confirmed, currently is serving on the U.S. District Court of Appeals for the D.C. Circuit. Prior to that, he served as a private attorney.

Durbin said Roberts' answer "raises the question about where" he would "draw the line" in representing clients. Durbin wondered whether Roberts would have represented segregationists in Brown v. Board of Education, the 1954 case that ended legal segregation in America.

Roberts, though, said as an attorney he was not a "hired gun."

"I think that's a disparaging way to capture what is in fact an ennobling fact about our legal system, that lawyers serve the rule of law -- above and beyond representing particular clients.

"... If the Constitution says that the little guy should win, the little guy's going to win in court before me. But if the Constitution says that the big guy should win, well then the big guy's going to win. My obligation is to the Constitution."

Although only two rounds of questioning originally were scheduled, the committee went into a third round Thursday. Only a handful of senators -- mostly Democrats -- used the extra time. Twenty minutes were allotted for the final round, which concluded Thursday morning. The committee was scheduled to hear from outside witnesses beginning Thursday. A committee vote is expected Sept. 22.

Sen. Charles Schumer, D.-N.Y., said he was disappointed in Roberts' "refusal to answer so many of our questions."

"I know you feel you were more forthcoming than most any other nominee to the high court," Schumer said. "I must disagree. ... Most answered more relevant questions than you did. ... What we need to know are the kinds of things that are coming before the court now, and it makes it hard to figure out what kind of justice you will be -- particularly in light of the fact we have little else to go on."

Schumer added: "You did speak at length on many issues, and sounded like you were conveying your views to us. But when one went back and read the transcript each evening, there was less than met the ear that afternoon. Perhaps that's the job of a good litigator, but in too many instances it didn't serve the purpose of the hearing."

Roberts said he had "tried to be as fully responsive as I thought consistent with my obligations as a sitting judge and a nominee." He also noted that in every Supreme Court confirmation hearing, senators want more information than they get.

"You have 50 opinions," Roberts said, referring to his brief time on the circuit court. "You can look at those. ... I don't think you can read those opinions and say that these are the opinions of an ideologue. You may think they're not enough. You may think you need more of a sample.... But I think if you've looked at what I've done since I took the judicial oath, that should convince you that I'm not an ideologue."

Throughout the hearings Roberts repeatedly said he believes judges have a "limited" role

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TAKE MY HEART AND LET IT BLEED
(Written By: P.A. Jervis, Jr.)

Take my heart and let it bleed all over your new jacket
Take my heart and let the blood spell out love for you
Take my heart and wear it on your sleeve

So long ago, even though you say it doesn't feel that way
I said the magical words of love and you vanished
Never to be seen, never to be heard of because a lover from your past
A lover from you past loved you real nice and you didn't see the love that I had for you

Take your heart and let me wear it on my sleeve
And show the world all the pain that you have given me
Let me mark it black and let the others know of all the hurt that you have caused me
And someone else that has seemed to try to claim your heart.
Take your heart and let the blood leak out the love and show that it carries hate
The hate that we all can see and that you try to cover up with this psuedo love.
This psuedo love that I feel for making feel that it was the best thing that I had ever felt in my life.
Take your heart and let it bleed over the old jacket that I bought you when I first saw you
For it means nothing now to me... you will feel what I feel.