I am working on this new project. This project is me. It involves me only. This is a personal journey of growing up and finding out what I need. Also, on this journey I get rid of the people that I don't need and that were bringing me down. This project has taken approximately three to four months a little longer that it was supposed to but it was well deserved. I believe. I got a chance to breathe, to get out of the spotlight just a little bit. Now it's the time to show the new me off. I can shine, I can glorify. I can believe in the things that I think are right. This journey will continue and I will continue write tell you how I am doing and express how I feel.

Simple.

Simple things.
That you do that make me think
That make me wonder what's going on.

Simpleness.

The simpleness like hearing your voice.
Like hearing that you love me
Set me at ease.
When it comes to others ..please.
You don't compare.

Thanks for being there.
Plain and simple.

There is a man
That everytime you talk to him you can see that he's been through a lot

It's the way that he speaks that everyone knows that he hardly ever
Jokes around about anything but when he smiles you realize that there's
Still a little bit of joy in his life.

The cigarettes that he smokes, about two packs a day
To take the past, present and possibly the future pains away
Thinking that no one cares for him.

There is a man
That everytime you talk to him you can see that he's been through a lot

In response to one of the comments left on my blog, asking if I was a homophobe. I am definitely not a homophobe. Thanks.

St. Maarten official:
beating of gays 'barbaric'

Investigation of attack on two U.S. journalists criticized
PHILIPSBURG, St. Maarten (AP) | Apr 13, 12:38 PM

The beating of two gay Americans with tire irons in this Dutch Caribbean island was "barbaric and inhumane" and the attackers will be punished, St. Maarten's top tourism official said Wednesday.

New York journalists Dick Jefferson, 51, and Ryan Smith, 25, were outside a bar with several friends Thursday when three men attacked them. Jefferson, who said the attackers had yelled anti-gay slurs at his friends earlier that evening, faulted local authorities for not speaking to witnesses the night of the crime or pursuing leads.

At a weekly press briefing, Commissioner of Tourism Theo Heyliger called it a "barbaric and inhumane crime" and said it has the government's attention.

"These kinds of crimes won't go unpunished on St. Maarten," he said.

Three detectives were investigating the incident, and the public prosecutor's office has ordered a probe into the police response, the local newspaper, the Daily Herald, reported Wednesday.

Chief Public Prosecutor Taco Stein told the newspaper that authorities were speaking to witnesses.

Jefferson, a senior broadcast producer for CBS' national evening news, described the attack as a hate crime. A U.S. gay human rights group has criticized St. Maarten authorities, saying their response to the case has been sluggish.

The men were airlifted to Miami for medical treatment. Jefferson was released, but Smith's condition was not known Wednesday. Jefferson has said that Smith was severely beaten and that his doctors believe he may have suffered brain damage.

A call Wednesday seeking comment from Jefferson was not immediately returned.

Officials have received more than 500 e-mails — mostly from the United States — about the attack, which the prosecutor's office will respond to, Heyliger said.

The government has held meetings with public prosecutors, police, the private sector and counterparts on the island's French side about the attack, Heyliger said.

The island, a popular Caribbean tourist destination, is shared by France and the Netherlands.

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