June 1, 2006

  • I've been crying a lot these days.
    I cry a lot in my room, when I am alone
    When not anyone is around
    When I feel that the empty space in my heart just seems to get deeper


    Hush. It's not what you say
    It's what you do that hurts me the most.


    I've been crying a lot these days
    Because I don't understand what's going on
    I want to stay here
    In your arms, forever
    Forever until the end of time
    Never letting go


    Slice. My wrist start to bleed
    Because it's my life I'd prefer to get destroyed than to have you burn yours up


    I cry a lot in my room, when I am alone
    Because I don't want you to be too concerned about me
    It just seems like you don't really care like you used to anymore
    Like I am just talking off into nowhere, my voice fades into the distants
    I speak loud, I speak low and still you don't hear me
    I am trying to hold on, I am trying to be strong.. I am trying to live for me and you
    I am trying to be the better person and I suppose be strong for both us
    Indeed it is killing me, KILLLING me deep inside, eating away at me


    Faint. Drop.
    I fall to ground and call for mercy. I call for forgiveness.