I have been going through it I suppose. The ups and the downs that everyone likes to talk about. The good the bad and experiencing the ugly. 

Work is still the same. It gets better at times. We hired on some new people so that cuts down on the stress of not having enough people. They are supposedly training other people to be shift supervisors instead of asking me to step up to the plate. It sure would be nice if I got a bit of a mention. But I guess I am not what they are looking for and if that's the case that I can't progress in the company then I will find another job somewhere else. I am not going for the being overlooked ordeal. I will probably end up slapping someone.

I am living okay. I am thinking of changing my room around again but I am not sure. I've started letting the bed down and using it as a couch as well. It's pretty cool. I have to figure out how to get the DVR working again so I can record reruns of shows that I missed during the regular season.

My roomie is totally awesome. A complete opposite of what my previous roommate was. I have had the ewiest luck with roommates in the past years and I am glad that it's finally getting better. He asks for any bills that need to paid and all that other stuff. He's a bit incredible person himself. It's amazing. He's off in New Zealand right now with his girlie friend. I hope they have a safe arrival back to the states.

I tried to decorate my bathroom a little more but it's small and some of the stuff that I thought would fit in there doesn't really fit in there. So I am trying to think of other stuff that I want to do for it.  The living room has these nice little couches in them. It's nice. I love it mucho. Hehe. Anyway..

I have already started planning my party for October. I am going to start making fliers and invites soon. I have some people planning to come into town for it. I am truly looking for it.

Well I miss a mess of you: Big F in AR* Where'd you go? Hanna* Can you send me the file? Then I can look for you. I am sorry. Pipper* WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? CNLBitch* (You know you are missed).. you need to call a brotha back. Chucho* come and visit me... uh yeah tomorrow.

(Washington) A new drug to treat HIV won federal approval Friday.

The Food and Drug Administration said it approved Prezista for the treatment of the human immunodeficiency virus. The drug is the first approved HIV medication for its maker, Johnson & Johnson. It's also the first new HIV drug approved since June 22, 2005.

The drug, also known as darunavir, is a member of the protease inhibitor class of drugs. They work by blocking protease, a protein the virus needs to make more copies of itself. Since 1995, FDA has approved 10 other protease inhibitors.

The major side effects of this class of drugs are high cholesterol and blood-sugar levels, as well as lipodystrophy, or the redistribution of body fat. Protease inhibitors typically are taken as part of a cocktail of drugs.

Prezista is meant for use in patients who don't respond to treatment with other antiretroviral drugs, the FDA said.

The risks and benefits of Prezista for adults who haven't previously been treated for HIV and children are unclear, the FDA said.

The FDA approved Prezista to be taken with a low-dose of Norvir, a protease inhibitor made by Abbott Laboratories, in combination with other HIV drugs, the FDA said. Norvir, also called ritonavir, slows the metabolism of Prezista, boosting its effect.

In return for the FDA's accelerated approval of the drug, J&J must conduct follow-up trials to determine the drug's benefits, as well as to study its use in children.

Prezista _ taken as two pills, twice daily _ will cost $25 US a day, according to J&J unit Tibotec Therapeutics.

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 Thanks for the comments from my last Mimi entry, Atmtcprincess. It's much appreciated. I read the entry that you got your MC tickets in the mail. Well, so did I.

Despite the bad things that happen in the few days, I've been able to be excited about going to see Mariah in Phoenix on October 10th. I got excited when I got the email saying that my tickets had been printed. How ridiculous is that?

I am also trying to get back into the routine of updating ClubMimi.net. I kind of have been busy.

Anyway, back to the tour. I got my tickets and I nearly freaked out, like the concert was tomorrow. I was actually worried at first because there has been problems with some like internet orders processing my order with the apartment number and the street address getting all mixed up. So with that happening some of the stuff that's supposed to be coming to my house doesn't get here in time, if at all.

But no worries.. they are here. I am so stoked even though I got them presale, I hear that there is better seats than the one's that I have... and I am like oh no! Yeah but hopefully everything will be fun and nice... of course, it's Mariah.

I am trying to get other friends to go with me. But I really haven't heard any word from any of them. It's kind of sad, but oh well. I'll just have to take myself. Like I am learning I have to learn to take care of me.. and only me.

I can't believe all the things that I worked for
All the things that I felt, the things that gave me excite
They just disappeared today. They are gone.

I fall to my knees and ask why this happens to me.
Why must I let go. Why must you go.

Cos all of a sudden it's gone.

I've been crying a lot these days.
I cry a lot in my room, when I am alone
When not anyone is around
When I feel that the empty space in my heart just seems to get deeper

Hush. It's not what you say
It's what you do that hurts me the most.

I've been crying a lot these days
Because I don't understand what's going on
I want to stay here
In your arms, forever
Forever until the end of time
Never letting go

Slice. My wrist start to bleed
Because it's my life I'd prefer to get destroyed than to have you burn yours up

I cry a lot in my room, when I am alone
Because I don't want you to be too concerned about me
It just seems like you don't really care like you used to anymore
Like I am just talking off into nowhere, my voice fades into the distants
I speak loud, I speak low and still you don't hear me
I am trying to hold on, I am trying to be strong.. I am trying to live for me and you
I am trying to be the better person and I suppose be strong for both us
Indeed it is killing me, KILLLING me deep inside, eating away at me

Faint. Drop.
I fall to ground and call for mercy. I call for forgiveness.

 Yeah some people seem to be happy that I am writing again but they don't leave comments. It's incredible.. hehe, just kidding. I haven't heard from any of the people that I used to know anymore. It makes me sad for the most part. I am sorry that I had a down period and that I felt that I had to ignore the world. I am just having trouble and that involves trusting people and I just didn't know how to handle it.

I. Work

I am still having the same trouble at work. I am feel like I am being overworked and underpaid. I am tired of being the cashier bitch. I thought that when I got 'supervisor' attached to my title that it would lead to just uh.. wait .. .wait.. supervising. Yeah. Uh yeah, wrong. There's just too much to worry about and so many things going on. I have to finish like a million tasks everyday before I leave. I am supposed to clean the lab everyday before I leave but it's so hard to do. I can't really even finish the necessary things to make sure the lab moves along smoothly. It's freaking ridiculous. I am in search of a new job that pays about the same amount and lives up to its name. I don't think it matters if it's stressful. I think it matters more that I enjoy it more than not.

II. Living

I finally got a roommate. It's my former neighbor that lived across the hall way. I can't believe that my old roommate screwed me over and didn't pay me at all. He decides on the day that he's leaving that he's going to try to pay me and that I should have the person that's moving in pay me the deposit. If he would have told me from the beginning that he was going to do that I would have prepared a lot better than I did. I feel like people just find it easy to walk all over me. I am just going to become a mean ass and people aren't going to like very much but I think it's something that needs to be enforced because people are such assholes.

III. Relationships

Parents/Family- I talk to my mom on most days. I haven't really heard from anyone else. No else calls. I talk to my sister sometime via AIM and that's about it. Nothing else really. I just heard over the weekend that my aunt (my dad's sister) was rushed to the hospital recently. They told her that my dad was coming and they didn't even bother to call anyone in the family. So as far as I know she is doing okay and back home.

Friends- I haven't heard from many of them. I hear from people here and there. I have established some kind of steady communication for some of them. I just don't like to feel like I am the only one calling and doing all the talking and stuff.. you know what I mean? In some cases, what it feel like I am doing. I understand that we all get busy and that we all have lives of our own, but don't get upset when you haven't heard from me. I can be busy too and I try to talk to everyone and send messages to people. Plus, I am still having trust issues with some of you so I don't know.

Boyfriend- Shane and I are soon approaching our seventh month anniversary... if that's what you want to call it. It's definitely something special to me. He, himself, is definitely something special to me. It just really frustrates me that he smokes. I don't want him to smoke. I don't think he really understands that I am really like overboard concerned and that when he smokes it makes me upset. I wish that he didn't. I am glad that he has fulfilled the request of not smoking around me.. it wasn't bothering me that he was smoking one or two a day but then it's developed into five or six, maybe now even more. I am afraid that it's going to become a habit. I am afraid of letting go because I don't know how strong that I am to hold on. I don't know really know what to do and it saddens me that I am not motivation enough for him to stop. There are sometimes when we are talking, also that it's not too sure in his mind that he wants to keep me around. Like when he mentions future events it sounds like I won't be there. Yeah, that bothers me and I can't picture myself without him now... I just don't know if I can let go that easily.. that's why I changed my mind that I was not going to break up with him if he kept smoking. I just want him to talk to someone .. if not me, someone about what's going on inside and not taking out on a cigarette. It's just something that's really bothering me. I've been just trying to let it go, but I am too worried and too concerned and all these things are all inside of me GRRRAAHHAH!

(Jakarta, Indonesia)  The world continues to lose an ugly battle to HIV/AIDS that shows no sign of letting up after 25 million people have died a quarter-century into the epidemic, the head of the U.N.'s HIV/AIDS joint program said.

"I think we will see a further globalization of the epidemic spreading to every single corner of the planet," UNAIDS head Peter Piot told The Associated Press in a telephone interview from Geneva.

UNAIDS on Tuesday was scheduled to launch a 630-page report that takes stock of where the world currently stands with nearly 40 million people living with HIV/AIDS. It documents countries' progress and failures, and projects what must happen to keep some regions from experiencing disaster. The report was set to be released a day ahead of a High Level Meeting on AIDS in New York, a week prior to the 25th anniversary of the first documented AIDS cases on June 5, 1981.

"It won't go away one fine day, and then we wake up and say, 'Oh, AIDS is gone,'" Piot said. "I think we have to start thinking about looking at the next generations. There's an increasing diversity in how the epidemic looks."

Piot said that there is still time to stop it from worsening, but action is needed now on a number of fronts.

"Ultimately, it depends on how the leadership reacts, how the international community will continue to respond and how ready communities are to face the problem," Piot said. "Intervention is very low ... for many critical populations in many countries. We need to really intensify the response to AIDS."

Piot said the picture is not hopeless, with examples of progress in nearly every part of the world. He said Thailand and Uganda were two of the only previous examples where exploding epidemics were curbed, but a handful of other countries, including Kenya and Zimbabwe, are also starting to show promise.

Epidemics are diversifying, Piot said, with some driven by unprotected sex, others by dirty needles and some a combination of the two overlapping each other. Those trends must be identified and targeted.

Currently, about 1.3 million people in poor countries have access to antiretroviral treatment, but about 80 percent still are not receiving drugs.

Sub-Saharan Africa continues to be the epicenter of the virus, Piot said. The overall percentage of adults infected in some of the hardest-hit countries continues to climb, with several rates reaching double digits.

"In think in Africa, it is only comparable in demographic terms to the slave trade regarding the impact it has had on the population," Piot said. "In southern Africa, HIV prevalence continues to go up, and they're already the world record."

Piot said that the sheer population of Asia, home to most of the world's population, makes it a potential problem because even small gains in overall per capita infections equal huge numbers -- especially in countries like China and India, with over 1 billion people each. More than 5 million people are infected in India alone.

The Asia-Pacific region has 8.3 million people living with the virus, the second-highest after sub-Saharan Africa.

Papua New Guinea, which shares an island north of Australia with Indonesia's easternmost Papua province, has one of the region's worst epidemics in a country plagued by political instability, poverty and rampant sexual violence against women. Piot said it's the only place in the region that resembles an Africa-style epidemic.

Piot said Eastern Europe and Central Asia have become a new front where infections have expanded as people have access to more money and started buying injecting drugs -- instead of just shipping them through -- from countries like Afghanistan.

"Absolute numbers are still low, but when you look at the spread of the disease, we know from experience where that leads," Piot said. "The Middle East is the last part of the world where HIV is not spreading rapidly."

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 I personally am excited that Mariah (aka 'Mimi') is going on tour this summer. Mariah, who has not gone on tour since 2003, has officially announced a tour title: 'The Adventures of Mimi'. The tour starts in August in Miami, FL going all over North America and ending up in Phoenix in October.

I have already ordered my tickets for the last date of the tour in Phoenix. I am sitting in row 18 in section 101. If you are going you need to let me know because I have a section that I am developing for my site dedicated to Mariah. (http://www.clubmimi.net). I am going to work on the layout tonight and you need let me know what you think. Right now there is a link up to sign up to join the Club.Mimi Adventures team. If you're interested, we'd love to hear from you.

I am still doing the 'Say Somethin'' gig but it doesn't look like it's going too well. If you have the effort to try.. let's vote for Mariah's song every way possible.

Kneeling on my knees to ask for forgiveness.

I am asking that you give me every chance that you can
I am asking that you let me start all over with you and learn from what we've been through
And don't push me away because that's what it feels that you are doing

Kneel on your knees and realize that you can be wrong.

That this time you were wrong
And that you need to realize that love is too strong for me to let you go
And that this love is too strong for you to even think about leaving.

I think I lost my mind
I think that I am tried of being nice
I am tired of living life as the cool guy

That everyone seems to take advantage of and
Run through and not leave anything for me
Leaving me lonely

I think that I've lost my mind and will leave
Gossip and drama for the rest of you that are all caught in it.

I am tried of getting worried about the things I can't fix
I know that people like to take advantage of me and I am building a village
and I am not letting you in motherfucker cos you hurt me once and I am not doing it again.